I finally decided to do it. Yes...go back to school. It has been giving me a sense of empowerment ever since I made the decision. I've had it in my head for months, but somehow it wasn't the right time. Well, I can't see a better time than now! I have other things going on in my head too, but one thing at a time.
It feels good to know that I am in charge of my life again. Feels like I haven't been for sometime and it's like a breath of fresh air. I realize that the money will become extremely tight, and many things will go by the wayside while I pursue this, but it will be worth it in the end. I have a very good feeling about it.
My daughter and husband are behind me one hundred percent; haven't had a chance to speak w/my other daughter yet although I have a feeling she'll be on the same wavelength. After all, they are the ones who let the idea seep into my head the last year......
Have to wait for more paperwork. The website was not working properly so some of the paperwork has not been totally processed yet. I will have to wait a few days, but could be in class as early as June 15th! I plan on seeing my daughters with my husband for a few days before that--what a pleasure that will be to see them and my grandson.
This morning, when I woke up, though..those doubts and fears and anxieties were still all there. "What could I have done better?? Why won't they tell me??" The reminder that I must let it go helps me to move on--wash dishes, clean the house, make a phone call, get outside for awhile..anything to keep myself from going into that deep dark hole that I could if I let myself.
Let it go. Many companies treat employees like crap, especially in slow economy. My wife just went through it. Your removal may be for nothing more than who you are lunch with or who you didn't complement one morning. I am serious.
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